While teaching a class the other night on energy and shifting energy, the word “y’all” came out of my mouth…not once, but actually twice….where it came from…no clue. I don’t think I’ve ever said “y’all” in my life….maybe the 14 pair of cowboy boots do have more of an effect on me than I thought. Anyway, it got me thinking about change and how you change and why you change and how my life is completely different than it was 2 years ago.
2 years ago I was making tee times (nothing wrong with making tee times)…actually, this week 2 years ago I was in Arizona playing 2 rounds of golf a day and treating my coaching business like a hobby…..well, a hobby that paid for my tee times…so it worked (I can rationalize anything). My life was really good….but I knew there was something more….something else….and I also knew that I could get there, even though I didn’t even know where there actually was, I didn’t have a picture, but I was open…open to different…to new…to an adventure…which required me to let go…..and get real.
I kicked my own ass and had some incredible coaching to launch myself into high gear. I got out of a relationship that was “good enough,” and my life changed. The letting go of something that was ok made room for the “Holy crap, life is amazing” to come in. Ya see, when you hold onto something for too long, when you know in your heart, your soul, your being (All that sounded way warm and fuzzy…I did cry at the airport today) that it isn’t right, you’re actually keeping yourself stuck…you’re choosing it…you really are…you’re choosing to stay stuck….relationships…jobs …..insert your stuckness and the suckness that goes with it…it does suck…it sucks the life out of you in a metaphoric (sometimes not) kind of way.
So now my business is on a whole new level (and 2 years from now it’ll be rockin even more) and I’m making wedding plans (well, they’re actually made)….I’m getting married in 2 weeks (if you were to tell me that 2 years ago I would have asked how much crack you just smoked) to the most incredible woman on the planet. I know we were destined to be together…the universe conspired, sent us messages, messed with us a bit here and there, and then allowed magic to happen because we were open and as vulnerable as hell and fearless……what does your fearless look like….y’all ready for this?